You said knock, Lord I knocked. You said seek and Lord I sought. You said ask and I did, but I heard nothing.
The above statement has been my hearts cry to God in the last 3 months. “Lord I am hear, I am seeking you, where are you?” I believe everyone eventually reaches a point where they can throw up their hands and quit or allow the scales to fall of their eyes and start seeing things through spiritual eyes. In January I found myself in MAJOR transition and I made a decision to run after God — even though I felt lost I knew I needed to keep running. Even though I felt blind and disoriented I kept knocking, asking and seeking. My actions ignored my fear, and His voice became my only concern — the doors soon opened.
What did I do? [highlight] I just kept knocking.[/highlight] More times then I could count I sat in silence and heard nothing. I kept asking until finally I just asked for peace in the midst of the wait and transition. I ultimately want to love God like the scars on his back – unconditional. Even if I hear nothing, or don’t see the things I long for revealed on this side of heaven I want him to know he still has my love.
What caused the change?[highlight] I became consumed with the desire to seek His will[/highlight] for my life and I became desperate for just one touch, or one word. I set dreams at the altar and watched them burn ( and MAN its been SUPER difficult to walk in total surrender ) — I read recently that “God hides things for us, not from us. The walk of faith is to live according to the revelation we have received, in the midst of the mysteries we can’t explain. That’s why Christianity is called the faith.”
This is what I’ve learned – [highlight] My faith must remain current.[/highlight] I must continue to swim towards all Christ is. If faith comes from hearing (*Romans 10:17) then my relationship with the living God must be a constant flame that cannot be extinguished by the storms of life
Don’t quit and make sure to guard your heart. Remember we live in a broken world, with broken people (even Christians) and you are called to be the LIGHT in the midst of it all.
We are the Church,