When I was seventeen I clearly heard the Lord call my heart and all I was into ministry work. It took nothing for me to surrender my dreams of the WNBA and enter into full time ministry. I had encountered the living God and all I wanted was Him and to be in His presence every moment of my being. The only problem was I put God in a box. I truly believed that the only way I could do what God had called me to was through being a worship leader – Like an actual on staff at a church, guitar wielding, songwriting, touring on a bus – rockstar – typo – worship leader. I had no one around me saying WORSHIP IS A LIFESTYLE not something you do on a Sunday. I wish someone would have poured that concept over my young Impressionable soul.
If I had a time machine I’d go back to the seventeen year old version of me and tell her, the following things:
” When your 31 you’ll have seen and accomplished more than the average bear. You will have seen thousands sing your songs, and you’ve helped save girls from sex trafficking. You are married to a super hot Costa Rican so don’t go looking for love in the wrong places. Your life will be a non stop encounter with difficult people so don’t get offended. Your life will never be your own so just learn to adjust to change and difficult now. Music will be an aspect of your life but it will not be your life. Worship will be an aspect of your service to God but it won’t be the only thing you’re going to do — Oh yea one more thing ; don’t apply for an Old Navy Card, you’re gonna abuse it.
– The older cooler version of yourself
P. S. The Bus you keep wishing to be touring on will not take you to where God is sending you. Dream Bigger!!”